I’ve prayed some prayers that sounded more like, “my will be done”, than Thine.

I’ve thrown petitions at heavens that weren’t really concerned with Your will or Your way, but mine.

Like a petulant toddler, there have been times I’ve pouted when You answered, “No”. So sure that you must be holding out on me.

And in my ignorance and pride, I’ve tried to the God I serve into the One who serves me.

But You are not a genie sent down to grant my wishes, forced to do my will. And You are not Santa Claus, willing to give me all I want if I am only good enough.

You are the infinite, all powerful Creator of the universe with purposes and plans beyond my comprehension.

And when I struggle to understand Your ways, teach me to rest in what I know about Your character.

I know that You are merciful.

I know that You are just.

I know that You are faithful.

I know that You are good.

I know that You are mighty.

I know that You are love.

You are holy, gracious, and kind.

And I know that You are all these even when Your answer is, “no.”

So I will still keep knocking with the prayers upon my heart, but I will trust Your answer because I trust in You.